Still this stupid blogger beta is being annoying unfunctional... is that a word? Disfunctional? Bleh... annoying!!

I received the laptop on Saturday!! Unfortunately, it was such a busy weekend I didn't get time to open it until late Sunday night. It's sooo cute, so niiiicceee... but I gotta go and get my friend's help about getting office on it, and internet security and setting up the wireless etc... and I gotta look into the space... what is that called? Hard drive? You know storage space for files, music etc...

Thursday night I spent all night working on my Behavioural Studies assignment... and guess what? I only fitted in less than an hours proper sleep (by that I mean, where I allowed myself to go to sleep... I may have drifted in and out of sleep). I was so scared I'd have to hand it in late, because I thought that Hao Ying and Leo had take their laptop with them. After the siblings finished school, we drove to Private Hospital in Box Hill to see my grandpa.. he was in ICU and it was just really sad and painful to see him unable to move, speak and to see him in so much pain... at least he's awake and out of the coma. Then we went back to my uni to work out the assignment - coz I still thought the was no computer at home. I feel sorry for my bro and sis, who had to stay there with me till 11pm. So I was in bed working all night...

Friday work all day, had to rush in before it though to quickly do some last minute fix-ups on the assignment, print. Because time was short, I forced myself to take the lift. First time up, it was fine, but back down I was by myself, and I closed my eyes, terrified that I would see a shape in the reflection of the weird misty metal that is the lift doors. I came home, and fell asleep... hahah my sister went to the deb, and called me to pick her up, but I don't recall it, and she called me back later asking where I was... lol oops.

Saturday, Adrienne came with me, because she had a shift at Coles. We brought dad his father's day presents. I worked Saturday (last Saturday hooray!!) and finished 5.30, but had to hang out at my friend's till Adrienne finished work. Then rushed home, gave dad the presents, and got ready to go to 'Transport' bar in Fed Square for Andrew's birthday... Adrienne came along with me, to be the person who directed, coz I don't usually drive in the city. It was all right, but I was totally buggered. You do not know how frequently it is that I drift off into sleep while driving... Adrienne had to keep exclaiming "Jeair! Drifting!! Jeair! Speeding!!". It's really bad... don't say anything!! I just need to get used to the new routine and get more sleep...

Sunday was mum's concert thing we had to volunteer for. I was annoyed coz I couldn't find shoes to match my skinny leg black jeans... we were meant to wear closed toe shoes, but I went for thongs. Freaking hell... waking up 7am on a Sunday really sucks!! Even when I did have work at AMF, I would have a 9am start so it wasn't tooo bad... I don't know why they wanted us there at 8am for volunteering coz we just sat around till about 9ish... Helped out with some on stage hangings... then at 11am, we asked if we could leave, just coz we were doing nothing anymore. So we went to visit my grandpa. Amanda was volunteering with us.

Grandpa is at the normal hospital now, out of ICU which is good, but it's still really hard to see him unable to move, and talk, and then just crying.

You'd think that after what had happened, and what could happen (touch wood) that they'd realise that petty fights, or old family issues need to be put in the past, but no. The Dang family kids are stupid. Apparently, they all had a huge "meeting" with just the Dang kids (as in my mum, aunties etc), including the emancipated Uncle James. It didn't go well, and we overheard our aunties talking about it. And worse, Amanda's mum decided she wanted to die, so took some sleeping pills, and was in the psychology ward. I had no idea, and Amanda was very upset. Exactly what you need after your grandpa goes into hospital. I really don't think grandpa would have wanted to see his family fighting... he would want everyone to just get along and be a family again... I hate that they can't see past all the dramas... seriously, in the circumstances that we are in now, can't they just stop with their dramas, petty fights, issues, and JUST GET OVER IT?!

We decided to leave after seeing grandpa and greeting everyone and went to Box Hill to eat pho. We wanted to take Amanda shopping, just to distract her and I guess us from everything. But we were called back to volunteering becaus apparently they lacked back stage people. When we arrived, they said they didn't need people, but since we were there we could just standby. We ended up in a room a little bored, until a gate keeper brought some cards and taught us how to play 500. That entertained us till we needed to go the meeting, have dinner and prepare.

Our job was to usher people to the seats... it was sorta stupid only because people aren't that stupid... look for your letter row, then look on the seats for the number... hahah... it was different to last year, more hectic, this year wasn't too bad. Perhaps they were just more organised.

This year's was pretty good, they had some little stories, accompanied by music and the Melbourne Chinese Choir that mum is in. Ahhh we got all upset after seeing the first story. There's this old couple, and the wife ends up in hospital, stroke, and she can't move. Her husband comes to visit her all the time, bringing in his freshly squeezed OJ for her each day... And then he stops coming but the OJ is always there, and she wonders where he has gone, and her doc tells her he's busy with their nephew's wedding, but still leaves her OJ. Turns out that he is dying of liver cancer... very sad, but I think it just made us think of grandpa... and we ended up in tears... bleh... crying in the corner, and then my Aunty Jenny came and spoke about going home... and it just reopened the gates of stuff we were putting aside for now, for Adrienne's sake.

Too many tears...

Grandpa is stable, but it'll be a while for him to walk again I think they said. And I think the adults are preparing for... yeh. I dunno, I've always had the thought in my head that he'd always be around because he was so young looking, so healthy. Of course, that's childish thinking... but like, I never thought this would happen. And I was thinking, I mean, I didn't know him all that well, but he was there when I was growing up, and he is my grandpa... I just can't believe how sad it all is. It makes me think about how bad it would be if it was someone I was really close to... and it makes you realise that stupid petty things don't matter in the end. And to yeah, cherish the people in front of you, coz you never know what will happen. Like this whole thing... when I got into uni, I just had less and less time, less opportunity to see the grandparents... whereas in high school, mum would sometimes have dinner with them and we'd see them. I never took time out to go see them. I guess it was also coz of how awkward it would be, and I always have the impression they dislike me.

It's awkward coz there's nothing we can really say to them. Like when we were visiting grandpa, it was like, we didn't know what to say. I really wish I can still have the chance to get to know him.