arghhh I could absolutely kill blogger! Another post that has been erased and gone... can't find it again... dammit!
And once again the options for pictures, colours, bold etc have disappeared! WTF!!!
I'll give blogger hmm... 5 more chances, and if it continues to disappoint me so, I will move over to wordpress. Did you hear that BLOGGER?? Just so you know I will follow through with the threat: I have already created an account with wordpress, in readiness of your failure!
Anyway, I was gonna put up a picture of the series I lent ya, Hao Ying - refer to the title of this blog... but well, there is no option in this stupid site!
I have no idea what I typed last time, but I can only be brief today because I really need time to do this assignment!
Jenny, what were you doing up so late last night? Freaking scared Adrienne and I... "look at the window!" and just as we managed to fall asleep, another buzz with the sms of: "look up, there's a guy in the corner"... OMG man! lol.. it'll come back to you. Who was it that said it? Can't remember, but I remember someone saying that if you choose to scare people with ghosts, you leave yourself more likely to be haunted. mwhwhahahahaha. Suck on that! =P
Life goes on... on Tuesday we found out that my grandpa is in hospital after suffering a stroke. That's why I cancelled Springvale at first, because we rushed to Box Hill Hospital after I picked up the siblings. Only to arrive, while finding parking, to have mum tell us there was no point in going in because he had just had the operation and wouldn't be awake... I felt sort of annoyed because I drove all the way out there only to turn back.
Last night, I spent several hours at uni with a friend working on an assignment that I have to finish tonight (even though due tomorrow - I have work therefore must finish tonight). My sister rings saying that mum wants us to rush to the hospital because she was afraid something might happen. He had no woken up yet after the operation....
I was stuck. I needed my friend's help with this assignment worth 45% of our mark and last night was the only time... yet the duty to go see my grandpa. I didn't know what to do.
I have never been close to my grandpa... his personality is gruff, proud, and never ever wants to be seen as weak (seems the personality has carried onto a majority of his kids). He used to call us three "potatoes" in chinese, and in front of us, he used to ask my mum "why are you so stupid? Why did you take the kids?" blah blah... makes you feel REAL special, don't it?
The last time I saw him, which was earlier this year for his birthday, he looked so run down, so tired He has always been healthy and young looking... and I felt sad for him that day on his birthday. It was like, he was just happy everyone was there for his birthday. Like none of that other dramatic stuff that usually happens... I guess it makes you treasure things more? He was having problems with one of his eyes, but in general appearance he looked tired, sick and run down.
He is our grandpa after everything, and even though I got the impression he never liked us very much (being the offspring of my "evil" dad, and being the children of their black sheep daughter)... it just sorta is all sad.
I didn't know what to do last night: and you won't believe how bad I felt. I decided to stay back a little while, and then later my sister called to say that he had woken up, and mum had told us we didn't need to come down that night. So we're going today after they finish school.
It makes me question myself... I guess I dunno. Man. Everyone has gone to see him except us... and I feel terrible... and I may be rationalising but like we just haven't had the chance to... I feel sooo bad. He could have died, and instead of rushing to see him, I choose to stay a little longer working on an assignment before going to see him... I don't think I understood the urgency. How do you prioritise it all?
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